I wish I hadn't chopped the hell out of my legs because I really can't even sit down now. I know, I promised Jessica I wouldn't do it, but she's gone to Florida for a week and has no internet, so she won't find out for a while. I carved "annoying bitch" into my leg, that's what Adam called me. I took quite a few pictures of the blood and cuts too. I am hoping to figure out how to use Dreamweaver so I can make a layout with the pictures I took. It would be wonderful to really express myself through my layout. I mean, oranges are great [[as is orange juice]] but I'm not "fruity" I'm depressed, down, shitty. I like Adam. I made Ben Helinski his shirt today with the Mest logo on it. He's been wanting me to do that forever, so I made it his Valentine's day present. I hate Valentine's day. It's such a stupid holiday. I never get anything. I don't have a Valentine. I'm a loser. Adam doesn't want to be my valentine. No one does. Pfft, stupid holiday... ******************************** Nic0Pic0: will you be my valentine? one leged rhino: sure? Nic0Pic0: well, you sound skeptical. if you don't want to be you don't have to. one leged rhino: ok then one leged rhino: ill be my own valentine Nic0Pic0: pfft, fine. one leged rhino: :-P Nic0Pic0: I didn't want you to be my valentine anyway. one leged rhino: lol, yea u do one leged rhino: u asked Nic0Pic0: �cries� Nic0Pic0: :-[ leave me alone one leged rhino: u started it Nic0Pic0: no, you did. one leged rhino: frig u i did Nic0Pic0: :'( one leged rhino: ..... Nic0Pic0: I just wanted you to be my valentine! you don't have to get all huffy and insult me...:-( one leged rhino: -*kisses ure forhead*- ******************************** For Valentine's I went to Portland and bought Ashley a Good Charlotte poster. That's what she really wanted because of her crush on Billy. I know, I am the coolest sister ever. [[she bought me a beanie baby]] I did nothing for my mom. I hate her. She can burn in hell for all I care. I gave Ben a shirt and some chocolates, regardless of his hoity toity girlfriend that I could never compare to. I really did nothing else. Ashley and Ben, they're it for me this Valentines. I didn't get a call from my dad! What a fucking prick. He can't even call to wish me a happy Valentine's day. Should I call him? nah, he can fucking shoot himself AGAIN for all I care. Prick. I'm going to write a letter to Josh! Goodness I miss him. SO MUCH! Maybe he'll be my Valentine. Lol, yeah... right.
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